My journey to finding faith was not just a skip, jump or leap. It was more like an ocean, on high tide drawing me in. It completely engulfed me; it did not develop in stages. It was me, completely surrendering to all that I thought I knew and to me just letting going and finally saying Y-E-S! It all began at a point of uncertainty. Uncertainty of who I was, uncertainty of where I belonged, uncertainty of where I was going. I was filling my body from head to toe with pressure of uncertainty and I was single handedly denying myself the Y-E-S. I lived in fear of what if? What if I made the wrong decision? What if I didn’t succeed? What if I wasn’t good enough? What if I was being judged? What if I was repeating the past? While I was spending so much time and energy saying no, and questioning myself, I was denying myself of the positive life I deserved so long ago. The moment I found faith, I found the answer Y-E-S! When I found YES, I found I CAN DO ANYTHING. I also found Y-E-S; You Evolve Subconsciously. I was subconsciously feeding myself so much negativity that’s how my life was evolving. Most people are scared of the ocean pulling you in because fear lives in all of us. But when you release yourself you suddenly find yourself floating above the surface. When you find faith, you find the real you. Say yes, release doubt. Forget the what ifs, forget the should have, could have, the “I can’t,” the “I won’t.” Because you CAN and you WILL, whether you choose to surrender or not. Faith will find you, maybe in small steps, or like me, pulled all at once straight into the depths of the sea. You have to release and trust that what is meant for you will always be yours. It will always find a way back to you. But most importantly, in your journey, always say yes, to yourself first and foremost. You can do this! You evolve subconsciously. The moment I found faith, I found me. Y-E-S!
Throughout life, I have wanted this, wanted that, and always had such a tight grip because I wanted my life to be arranged just so. I had many desires and expectations regarding my life and my plan for it. But what I’ve come to realize that the journey is not arranging my life just so, but to continually seeking and being open to find the journey of your soul. Consciously we could become discomforted by the idea of throwing caution to the wind and being open, but if we can see beyond the surface, we can begin to experience with the heart of our souls. We will feel completely empowered by the depth we find. It is here we will learn about power, love, faith, hope, letting go, embracing new, and courage. Opening up is not something that we do a few times in life, but rather, it has to be our way of life. Life is always going to throw us curve balls and make us want to close off, and put up a wall. When we make a commitment to ourselves to be open, no matter what life “does to us,” we are choosing how we want to live. It may be risky to love, to feel, to believe and be open, because at one point in your life you were burned or betrayed. But that insecurity only comes from not trusting and cherishing your own heart. Open your heart and believe. Learn to see life with the heart of your soul and experience your truths and let your soul lead on this beautiful journey of life.
“I write about the power of trying, because I want to be okay with failing. I write about generosity because I battle selfishness. I write about joy because I know sorrow. I write about faith because I almost lost mine, and I know what it is to be broken and in need of redemption. I write about gratitude because I am thankful – for all of it.” – Kristin Armstrong
I began to ponder before I found this quote, why do I write? At first the answer was simple, it is a place where I can freely write anything, without being judged. But then I let the question sit with me, deep in my thoughts, and paused again, and did not find the same answer. I write not only because I can write anything freely, but because I am called to do so. I write in good times and in bad, I write on sunny summer days, and on cloudy winter days. I write because it helps me understand things which don’t make sense, and require rereading to understand. I write to remember all the moments so vividly, and precisely as if I were re-experiencing them again. I write so I can recall my growth and remember my struggles, for it is those moments who made me who I am today. But most importantly, I write in hopes that my story will somehow, someway, help someone feel at ease. Why do you write?
Your writing voice is the deepest possible reflection of who you are. The job of your voice is not to seduce or flatter or make well-shaped sentences. In your voice, your readers should be able to hear the contents of your mind, your heart,your soul.”
“The difference lies not in the uncertain future but in you and the authenticity of your vision. You are the source. With you and in you, the spark is ignited. This isn’t knowledge that you learn. It’s knowledge that you become.”
After finding this quote, I finally return home to my blog. I’ve spent the last two weeks beating myself up, living in self-pity of all the things I’m not. I allowed doors in my mind to be opened, when I should have said no thank you, I am strong and heathy! My vision was corrupted by the weakened state of health, but I am here to declare I no longer will give in. This is the card I have been dealt at this point in my life, but in my vision for the future, I see no sight of these struggles. I see myself mountaintop, conquering each and every battle thrown at me. You must see your future every single day, even if your standards are too high. Shoot for the moon, and see yourself getting there and with faith, hope and strength, you will! We are on this journey together, so grab my hand, and let’s hike up!
I find myself often times being my hardest critic, ignoring the fact that I really should be my number one fan. How often I get discouraged with myself for not pushing myself harder, for not completing a task on time, or for simply not giving myself the best. Sometimes though, you need to quit fighting to be or go somewhere else. You can only just be the best you can be, right now, with what you have. Every day should be a celebration of you, because you have another day to inspire, to live, to love. You have another day to journey in finding a better you. Another day to looking at yourself in the mirror and say “hey looking good, that hard work is paying off.” Just appreciate yourself, and work hard for yourself, because in the end you want to leave an impression. I for one, want to be inspiration. Coming across this Joel Osteen quote, I want it to leave it off with you to reflect on and enjoy!
“When nobody else celebrates you, learn to celebrate yourself. When you nobody else compliments you, compliment yourself. It’s not up to other people to keep you encouraged. It’s up to you. It should come from the inside.”
Happy Monday everyone!
As I listen to Joel Osteen this morning, something inside me sparked. He said “You must make a decision that you are going to move on. It wont happen automatically. You will have to rise up and say, ‘I don’t care how hard this is, I don’t care how disappointed I am, I’m not going to let this get the best of me. I’m moving on with my life.” I not only thought of all the struggles I have been dealt in the past few weeks, but I thought about how much attention I’ve given them. Instead of seeing each day, as a baby step in the right direction, I chose to feed my struggles, by constantly saying how bad everything was. By feeding it, I feel I made the problems grow bigger and bigger, instead of having some faith, and just saying “all is well.” Not every day is going to be perfect, and everyone has complaints, but if we focus all our energy into the negativity, it consumes us. We must find strength, and faith to guide us in these hard times, so we will make our way past this storm, into the sunlight. Something bigger and better always comes after these struggles. Dare to be different, go against the grain, just demand, “all is well!” Don’t be moved by the circumstance, but stand tall! Keep pushing yourself to a better you!