It has been a really long time since I got personal, or have even posted. My life has been all over the map, but somehow today, it has brought me back here. This quote just hit me hard. One day my body is a certain way, months later it is here. I dropped 35 pounds, not because I wanted too, but because I got so sick,(Stomach issues). I not only felt like I wasn’t myself, my clothes were falling off, nothing fit, and I felt like I needed to try my hardest to get back. So I ate only healthy foods, lots of almond butter, lots of smoothies packed with healthy fats, salads, beans, eggs and lots of protein shakes. I started to gain, so so so slowly. Progress was taking so long, and I was becoming discouraged, but I never gave up. People everyday talk about “how do I lose weight I’m so miserable, need to lose 5 pounds.” Here I was trying to gain back 35, and not by eating McDonalds and meat, but by eating healthy. Everyday I looked in the mirror, was looking for that beautiful body that I once picked at for every little imperfection. I would take all those imperfections back. But I only fought harder, I was determined. I am about 10 pounds shy of my weight, but I have been lifting heavier weights when my body permits it, and my body is coming back better then ever. For those out there who constantly nit pick at the imperfections, instead of doing so, just exercise. Once you get your head in the game, you will see those imperfections disappear. My journey is not over, but I am thankful for the beauty that I can look in the mirror and see. I am also thankful that I know that I worked hard for this! So here’s to us!
“In order to get rid of your slippers, you have to admit they are yours, and if you do, then they will get rid of themselves…The key to your happiness is to own your slippers, own who you are, own your family, own the talents you have, and own the ones you don’t. If you keep saying your slippers aren’t yours, then you’ll die searching, you’ll die bitter, always feeling you were promised more. Not only our actions, but also our omissions, become our destiny.” -Abraham Verghese
This quote rather intrigued me because I don’t know of many people who can completely “own” who they are. I find that there are far more people who would rather judge instead of reflecting their own energy inwards. Everybody can be judged for something they did, but if we spend all our energy focusing on that, then we’ll waste all our time. I found myself from time to time dividing the world into good and bad, right and wrong, and I thought by doing this, I would steer myself in a direction away from the bad and wrong. But I find now that I just placed myself into the judging category, when in fact it was not my job to do so. It was almost a fear, and being afraid to just love who I am, and own that I am who I am, and it doesn’t matter who I come in contact with. When I judge others, I am also judging myself. Judging limits us and hold us back. You need to set yourself free, and others as well. You have to learn to look inward and be in love with yourself, where you are right now, where you have already been, and who you are. Own your slipper, and embrace the inner beauty of your inner self.
Happy Rainy Wednesday everyone!!!! There is something about the rain that always finds a way to improve my mood. Something so magical about it, that I just can’t explain!! Insert Melissa singing and dancing because I’m HAPPY!!! Okay, onward . I started reading Eat, Pray, Love again, and came across this quote.
Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it. You must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it.
Everything in life takes effort, and I find that people are so quick to give up, (myself included), because we don’t see immediate progress. But we need to observe and be content with the quarter mile we’ve come. Yeah it may not be that big mile leap you have hoped for, but in the end the total distance adds up. Every step, even the smallest one gets you that much closer to whatever it is you are striving for. People always look at the negative and see that its taking too much time, but its times like that you need to embrace that thing called patience! Keep believing in yourself, keep pushing yourself, and you will find with a little more patience, you will reach your finish line!
Although it doesn’t feel like spring outside, I gave thought to the idea of spring cleaning. Not only the physicality of spring cleaning, but of mental cleaning too! So often we hold so much inside of us, that with time it just overflows. We need to clear not only our closets, but our lives of clutter too. Friendships that are lagging, jobs that are dragging us down, negativity that we allow to continually flow in our lives, so much that built up in the darkness of winter. We need to spring ahead into the light and enjoy the warmth that’s to come. For me, this first step is answering this question, “What could you be happy about if you chose to be?” This question, makes me see that I have the power of choice, to chose my happiness. I begin to think of things that are weighing me down, and things that I feel tied to, and if I chose to be happy, would I just let these things go? Are there things that are holding you back from choosing to be happy? I find that the key to finding a better you, is to examine and “spring clean” this negativity, and make the choice to be happy. It not only makes a better you, but you’ll find that you’ll be living a happier life.