In exactly a week from now, it will mark my 27th birthday. As I think about time, and the things that have stayed the same, and the things that are completely and utterly different, I think of the process that goes along with it. Change is inevitable, and although we think somethings will last forever, they won’t. That is the story of life. Struggles are temporary, and we must see that our future is clear of what we are dealing with at this moment. Maybe we have an illness, or a disease, or a loved one whom is sick, time does not stand still, and the future may hold greatness. I think about the things I would have liked to accomplish, but then I find myself focusing on my personal growth. It may not always be visible to the eyes around, but personal growth is one of the greatest accomplishments there is. Birthdays for me always mark a time to be grateful for those around me. I am grateful for the struggles I have been through, because without them, I wouldn’t learn what strength is. I am grateful for time, and that each day I get to awake and discover something new about myself. We must not take time for granted. So go out and enjoy today, find something new to discover about yourself! You are on the path to finding and perfecting a better you!
Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don’t resist them – that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like. -Lao Tzu
“The difference lies not in the uncertain future but in you and the authenticity of your vision. You are the source. With you and in you, the spark is ignited. This isn’t knowledge that you learn. It’s knowledge that you become.”
After finding this quote, I finally return home to my blog. I’ve spent the last two weeks beating myself up, living in self-pity of all the things I’m not. I allowed doors in my mind to be opened, when I should have said no thank you, I am strong and heathy! My vision was corrupted by the weakened state of health, but I am here to declare I no longer will give in. This is the card I have been dealt at this point in my life, but in my vision for the future, I see no sight of these struggles. I see myself mountaintop, conquering each and every battle thrown at me. You must see your future every single day, even if your standards are too high. Shoot for the moon, and see yourself getting there and with faith, hope and strength, you will! We are on this journey together, so grab my hand, and let’s hike up!
As I sat in the pew of the overly packed church this afternoon, awaiting my ashes, I began to think about Lent and the weeks ahead. Thinking of being washed of my sins of the past, as she placed the ashes on my forehead, and as I took my first step away from her, thinking of how to embark on a better future with fewer mistakes. I thought of what I wanted to “give up” for Lent, and through the years it has always been the same, “don’t bite my nails.” But as I wiped the dust ashes from my eyes, I thought about the idea of judgement. Just yesterday, minding my own business, just enjoying the day, someone randomly decided to impose their opinion on my life, asking where my drive was? As I stared blankly back at them, I felt no response was necessary. I knew within myself, that I had more drive and strength then anyone could or would ever need to see. For me, that’s enough. I began to think of the judgments I may at times impose on others, and thought that this Lent I will try my hardest just to be more understanding, and less judging. Because who am I really to judge another? I don’t know what they deal with on a daily basis, or what weight is on their shoulders. I only know what I carry, and to be an added burden to someone, just seems so unfair. So this Ash Wednesday I commit to hopefully being judgement free, and instead of being a burden, I hope to lighten your weight, even just a little. Everyone deserves to smile, and everyone deserves to do things in their own time, without judgement. Everyone deserves the opportunity to finding a better self.
The feeling of “stuck” is something which most of us face daily. Stuck in a job we dislike, stuck in a relationship, stuck in a financial situation, stuck in a way of living, stuck with a bad medical history/report, or stuck with a bad self image. We wake up every morning with this weight already on our shoulders, and some how we manage to plaster on a smile, but really what else can we do? Although you may feel stuck, and the solution seems very far away, there is something you can do. You can wake up every morning, and be thankful you have a job to go to, a paycheck to collect, or although you may not be completely healthy, you still have another day to find a solution. We can’t pause our lives, we can’t rewind, and we can’t fast forward to see if we make the right decisions. All we can do is wake up, and have right now. Sometimes you just have to embrace the chaos, plaster that smile on, and look at yourself in the mirror and just say ” This is going to be a GREAT day.” Choose this day to get yourself “unstuck”, not by changing any of your situations, but by changing your approach. Be thankful, and choose a positive mind set. You will find that even in chaos, greatness lies ahead. Continue to push yourself to that better self image, to a better stronger, more powerful, YOU!
As I listen to Joel Osteen this morning, something inside me sparked. He said “You must make a decision that you are going to move on. It wont happen automatically. You will have to rise up and say, ‘I don’t care how hard this is, I don’t care how disappointed I am, I’m not going to let this get the best of me. I’m moving on with my life.” I not only thought of all the struggles I have been dealt in the past few weeks, but I thought about how much attention I’ve given them. Instead of seeing each day, as a baby step in the right direction, I chose to feed my struggles, by constantly saying how bad everything was. By feeding it, I feel I made the problems grow bigger and bigger, instead of having some faith, and just saying “all is well.” Not every day is going to be perfect, and everyone has complaints, but if we focus all our energy into the negativity, it consumes us. We must find strength, and faith to guide us in these hard times, so we will make our way past this storm, into the sunlight. Something bigger and better always comes after these struggles. Dare to be different, go against the grain, just demand, “all is well!” Don’t be moved by the circumstance, but stand tall! Keep pushing yourself to a better you!
We all search for balance in our lives. Balance in relationships, in friendships, in work, and in family. This idea has always been curious to me, because I feel no matter how hard we strive, balance is an impossibility to accomplish. It is a nice idea, but it’s not reality. Some weeks our personal lives consume every bit of our energy that we forget to balance our social lives, or the piles of work we have. Other weeks, our relationships, or work life require more of our time, and often people think it can be put on the back burner. So how do we balance a plate full? Do we divide our time up, or is it impossible to have it all? For me, it’s all about what is your top priority. First and for most that should be YOU! You cannot entertain or help anyone if you don’t care for you. All the other priorities are individualized. Work, of course is a necessity, but some of my other priorities would out weigh it. Can a balance be achieved? Once you dig deep down, and see what truly is important to you, I think its possible to have some sort of balance. Of course the scale is going to be outweighed from time to time, but if you make it your priority, nothing will get in your way, no excuses necessary. Just make sure you look at for you first. It is your number duty and priority. Wake up and push yourself to your limit!
Time is a funny thing.. Everyone says they are never going to get this or that done in time, or they want to be 30 and be in a certain place. But with changes and curve balls thrown at us everyday, how do we stay on track? And what if you are not guaranteed tomorrow? What would you do differently? I have suffered with up and down health conditions for over ten years, and was finally diagnosed with Lyme Disease, a year and half ago. I never thought I would have an answer, and I don’t feel I spent ten years wasting away time, but instead every day I woke up with determination to be “normal.” Time for me now, has a different meaning. I not only have learned to appreciate every single moment I am given, but I appreciate more simplistic things, like being able to get out of bed in morning, and having a great workout. More importantly, time has given me the opportunity to really appreciate and show the ones I hold near and dear to me, how much they mean to me. I find simple ways, to show them now, not tomorrow, next week, or in the future. You can sit here and plan and plan your life away, but if you don’t turn your head and look around, it will all disappear. Look down at your watch, and watch the minutes tick away, or get up and go spread your light! I am sure someone out there could use it! Happy Wednesday, workout hard, smile, laugh, and look up! Something better is on it’s way!!!! Be You Always!!
Right now before you bat your eye lashes one more time, you sit here wishing and hoping that when you close your eyes,all of the days struggles and frustrations will disappear. You hope that you will dream of something grand and that it will come true. Close those eyes now. See it coming true, wake up in the morning and live your dreams. Live everything you hope for. Live for you, for your happiness. Your happiness makes up you. Now I close my eyes, forgetting the past day, and staring at a plain black slab that’s waiting to be colored. Paint a rainbow, your choices are endless. And remember, you’ll always come back to this plain black slab every night, so there’s always another possibility. Just wait, and hope for a better day.
“Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. Look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true. Think only of the best, work only for the best, and expect only the best. Forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future. Give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others. Live in the faith that the whole world is on your side so long as you are true to the best that is in you!”
Some find it hard to let go of what’s on their mind even in the company of friends and on going conversations. You can feel them thinking, and pressuring themselves. I myself am guilty of this, and when I am so involved, I take myself to my place of mental clarity. It is a quaint private park, with a beautiful view of the beach. Something so soothing about it, that time just literally stops. I have always come to this place to write, to relax, and just to breathe. Last year, the gym became my second mental clarity place. I get lost in the struggle to keep up on treadmill, and the music streaming into my ears. Sometimes I can almost just see myself in the gym alone, and be there in that moment. Today, I hope that on the start of a new week, you find time to find a moment of mental clarity. Take another step on to finding a better you!!! Enjoy the moments of today, of now! We only get them once! Post your places of mental clarity! Hope you exercised with me today, even if it was only ten minutes. Always remember, I am here and so proud of you!
Patience and strength, two words which can easily be defined, but when faced with the reality of both words, easy is the last word I would describe them as. A week since my last post, I could have never imagined how important those two words are in life. I was in the ER on Sunday, and had medical complications due to a medication they had prescribed me. It was here, laying in my worst position that I realized that health is not just a thing we need, it is a lifestyle we need to obtain. Patience and strength, have guided me to this place, and without them I would lost. Since my ER visit, I have turned back to what I am truest to, and that is my belief in healing thy self with natural remedies. As long as you follow your gut, it will never guide you wrong. Along with some patience, strength, and a whole lot of support, anything can be done! You just have to trust yourself, and believe, things will always get better. Stay Strong! And keep finding your best lifestyle, for finding a better you!