Aware of our surroundings.

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Happy Monday!! I have been sick with Lyme Disease for those of you who know, but what most of you do not know, is this winter I was given a one dose IV in the ER, and the reaction I had from that one dose has been unimaginable. It has tested my patience, through this long recovery. I am still very patient, and extremely grateful for everything around me. The posts from my WordPress friends and small exchanges make every moment just a little easier. But not everyone in life is as understanding. This bump in the road has also made me aware of my surroundings. Everyone is happy to be around, and call you when you are grand and wonderful, but when you are unable to go out, or are of no use to them, you see a different side. It’s painful to see the reality of this, but I am also grateful to learn the real friends, from the not so supportive ones. My sun is rising again, and I will be using this anchor to help me forward. It’s about spending more time with those who make us better, and look at the best in us, even when we are at our worst. Unfortunately, it takes moments like this to see clearly. But I am SO grateful and fortunate for those who have been a crutch in this rainy storm. So Thank you! Here I Am! Finding my sunshine! 

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Renew Yourself!

9cf59bfd73d3908c9acd5f46af569199 (1)Happy Wednesday all!!! As i had mentioned in my previous post, I am on a detox mission this week! This morning I felt horrible, but dragged myself out of bed and forced myself to the gym! I had a slightly awkward moment, where everyone in the gym was staring at me, and I realized I was singing out loud!!!! Oh boy, what a way to start the morning!! Anyway, although the detoxing is kicking my behind, I am on a mission to make sure I feel renewed after this week is over! I had mentioned this idea of renewing yourself, and how to figure out to do that. First, you need to leave the past in the past. I am not only talking about the things that happened months ago, but also the things that happened last week and even yesterday. You can’t continue to hold yourself accountable for the things that you missed out. You need to renew yourself right now, in this moment. I can flood my mind with a thousand things I would have changed this week alone, but then I would crowd my mind and have no room to motivate myself to accomplish the things I need to do today. Push yourself a little harder today at the gym, clear your mind of yesterday, and invest so much thought in today, that you forget about tomorrow!!! Have a positive sunny day!!!!

Patience & Strength

Patience and strength, two words which can easily be defined, but when faced with the reality of both words, easy is the last word I would describe them as. A week since my last post, I could have never imagined how important those two words are in life. I was in the ER on Sunday, and had medical complications due to a medication they had prescribed me. It was here, laying in my worst position that I realized that health is not just a thing we need, it is a lifestyle we need to obtain. Patience and strength, have guided me to this place, and without them I would lost. Since my ER visit, I have turned back to what I am truest to, and that is my belief in healing thy self with natural remedies. As long as you follow your gut, it will never guide you wrong. Along with some patience, strength, and a whole lot of support, anything can be done! You just have to trust yourself, and believe, things will always get better. Stay Strong! And keep finding your best lifestyle, for finding a better you!Image

Day Nine!

Happy Valentine’s Day! I have been MIA for two days due to weather conditions, as well as health conditions. My exercise regimen has been running from doctor to doctor! But I hope that you have stayed strong, and worked out for both of us! On this day, I think if it’s the only day you do so, treat yourself to something. Spend this day, loving yourself, because no one will love you, quite like you could love yourself. Sometimes it takes being so down in the dumps, to realize just how strong you are. When you are on the floor and can’t get up, you look around and all you find is yourself. You are frustrated and sad, but somehow those pains turn into strength and you begin picking yourself up. You begin to see qualities in yourself you hadn’t seen before, and you find yourself sort of beautiful and strong, even in a weak moment. It is moments like these we have to bring with us in times of adversity. We have to remember we have been at the bottom before, and the only way to go is up! So today, remember all your strong moments, and love yourself for them. Spend this Valentine’s Day appreciating the only person in the world that needs it most, and that’s you!

Sending my xoxo’s to you! 

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Day Nine

Forgiveness to each person in this world is seen and experienced differently. For some it can be an anchor, which grounds you to this earth. To others, a double edged sword, piercing upon entry and exit. But for me, it varies per situation. I wonder often, when I sincerely seeked forgiveness, why was I easily granted it. Although, the damage I did, did not even warrant a response, I was granted one and more. An apology I worked on for at least two years came out as basic and questionable as a generated message on a Hallmark card. A double edge sword, because he forgave me, and even reminded me of my worth, but at the same time said he could not bare to keep a connection. The connection was an impossibility because of all the hurt he had felt. I understood his feelings, and when he said not a day went by since then, that he hadn’t thought about me every single waking moment, him forgiving me made me feel so much worse. And just as that connection was in me, it all faded away with that ending email. To forgive and be forgiven are the experiences which separates the anchor from the double edge sword. When you are forgiven, you are still left with the damage you have inflicted on another being. When you forgive, you feel a period of pain, but let it sink away after time, and you can surely feel grounded again. You are not left with this terrible feeling of regret or uncertainty. The symbol for human beings should be a double infinity, for throughout life we are either seeking to be forgiven or offering forgiveness to others. I find that as we steer through this life, if we are constantly grounded to the idea of the double infinity, forgiving and being forgiven, we could live a more fulfilling life. But first we must learn to practice and accept both. So on your journey today, and this week, think of this concept as you pursue finding a better you. I hope that your journey today brought you a simple walk outdoors, or even a simple moment to be alone with thoughts. You owe it to yourself!

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Day Eight

Happy Monday!!! Another new beautiful week to begin our journey! This weekend I began to think about the saying “to walk a mile in someone else’s shoes.” As I laid on the couch, sick as can be from a herx reaction, I thought about how many people take health for granted. People don’t think about it until they get really sick, but they also don’t think about those who are suffering daily, the people who’s job it is to learn to walk again, or to find the strength to keeping fighting the unknown battle. Those who are sick don’t know what it’s like to walk in the opposite shoes. We are all dealt cards, some which we couldn’t chose, and for anyone to hold judgment against another would be unfair. This path I walk was not one I have chosen, but we make the best with what our best is. I support you in every way I can on your journey. People will make mistakes and be unkind, but try to find the few who will be there when someone kicks you down. When you are down, get back up and just think of the mile they are walking…it may not be exactly what you are experiencing, but hardships float in everyone’s lives. Be understanding, and always remember, good always wins… Be true to the best you, it’s all that matters in the end.

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And I hope you are starting your week with a great workout! Stay motivated, for YOU!

Day Seven

We all have this idea that we have to have this great plan on how to use the gifts we were given. But if we spend day after day trying to figure them out, we end up wasting our precious days. If we sit in a job that’s barely pushing us to our most potential, why do we stay? We all fall into comfort zones, and with our current economy, our choices to change are limited. If we are unhappy with one division of our life, we should try our best to use our gifts in our relationships with others, or most importantly our relationships with ourselves. First and foremost we cannot help others if we can’t be happy with ourselves. Do you tell yourself you love yourself daily? Not in a conceited way, but in a genuine loving way. Our body is our temple, our treasure, the more appreciation we show it, the more good we are doing for it. Our gifts will appear stronger, and our will for change will become easier. Just love yourself, and you are that much closer to a better, stronger you.

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Day six

My original plan of coming along on this journey together of health and wellness, I did not factor in the rainstorms in between. Although, we can always find the rainbow at the end of the storm, we first need to bare the pouring rain. I have read blogs that are 100% positive and uplifting, but for me that’s not always a reality. If we didn’t have speed bumps, where would we gain our strength? As I found myself receiving an IV today, I sat in a dark room, wondering how was I going to motivate someone today? Feeling like I had gone backwards in my progression, I kept telling myself what doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger. I began to worry about my job, and all the other factors of my life, before I snapped out of it. If I don’t have my health, then what do I have? Yes I am cruising slowly over a speed bump in a rainstorm, but the rain will stop and then the journey continues. So I can’t say that I worked out with you today, but I will ask you to be thankful for your health if it’s a good day. Be thankful that you can enjoy nature and even the job you are at. Be thankful if you had even a short brisk walk outside. But most importantly be thankful that you are staying true to finding the best possible you!wpid-wp-1391713591601.jpeg

Day Five!

Puddles, sleet, rain, and more snow, made this morning a rather difficult one to make my way to the gym. This weather, I allowed to make me anxious, and it was my first mistake. I became easily frustrated and then moody, because I couldn’t go anywhere. Instead of looking at this day as a day to utilize and get things done around the house, I took a complete wrong turn. I did end up working out to a yoga dvd, but at that point I already did a number on myself. I have looked near and far for this answer, in the skies above and the earth below, but to find that the answer was always within. One step in a different direction this morning, and I could have found myself happy and pleased with just great thoughts all in-powered by me. But I, chose this day, I put these thoughts in my head, I made that mistake. Instead of looking at the beauty of nature, the white new coat of snow, and frosted trees, I looked at nature, and let it become my obstacle. How often we do this as society? How often we let the beauty of life, challenge us? How often do we blow situations out of proportion, putting more stress on ourselves then necessary? I continued to think how wasted this day was, but then it was like lighting striking. I could sit here and say it’s over, i’m moody and anxious, or I could seize the rest of the day, and make it worth while! So as I leave you to make a snowman, and do something extremely silly, I hope that you don’t make the same mistake as me. If your bus is late because of weather conditions, or you have more work then normal, take a look around and find something to be thankful for! Your body would sure appreciate more then the stress! Continue to find a better you! Image

Day Four!!

As I place my tip to myself in my workout jar beside my bed, I begin to look at the pictures surrounding my room. I look at the faces that now seem empty to me, and the one’s who shine light in my life daily. I’m reminded who stood by me in this journey of mine, between the good and the bad, between the unexplained times of my disease, to the great days and motivations. I reflect on the days I force myself out of bed, and to the gym because I know it is the only thing that will help at the moment. As I look at all these faces, I am thankful for the times they stayed, but also for the times they gave me my space, to just be comfortable in my own skin. It is these people who motivate me to find the complete equation to fix me. It is the new people, such as yourself, who motivate me to find an equation fit for everyone with this disease. The first equation is surrounding yourself with positive people. Sometime’s those faces who seem empty in your pictures need to be crowded out, to make room for the new lights that will shine in your life. You can’t chase people to stay with you. You just have to be you, and the people who belong will find a way and stay. Just be you! I continue my days, workouts in the morning, home cooked meals, work at night, and plenty of sleep. Those who understand me, know this is what I need, and accept me for me. You do not need people who question where life is leading you. They are the ones that need to be left in the trails. Just take the road that’s meant for you, and those who belong with you walk along side with you, for when you need that extra boost. Thank you for walking beside me on this journey, and I am here ready to shine my light, if you need me.  And always remember…Image