Destiny. . .

I use to ride the Metro-North train up to my grandparents house in Connecticut, in the cold snowy winters. To me, the train ride always seemed to be the best part. Gazing outside as the snow drifted along the tracks, and people boarded on and off. It was on these rides I would find myself deep in thought. What did destiny mean to me, would always be a popular discussion in my mind. It confused me as a young girl, because I always thought of destiny as a destination. I always wondered what it would feel like when I reached my destiny, and when that moment came, would that be the only light I would see in my life. As I grew older, I began to realize destiny was more than one destination, it was the moments occurring now. Destiny can be heartache, deep love, unfortunate decisions, happiness, self-discovery or sadness. We have to live each moment, learning each lesson, and learning each person we meet so we can link them all together to create a chain. As we connect each of these defining moments in our lives, we create our destiny. Destiny isn’t some destination or one shining moment for the world to see us how we are, but instead it is present, where we are now. 

The Fear Of The Unknown

There are things in life that are so mysterious, yet are so beautiful. We don’t really have to understand it. We don’t really have to understand everything. We just let it be. That’s just how it is. That’s how life is supposed to be.

-MakatangLakwatsera

I came across this quote and just felt it was a piece of the puzzle I was searching for.  I always pay so much attention to every little detail in every aspect of my life. There is not a moment in my life that I haven’t just experienced and let it be. I over think, and analyze every emotion, every pain, every moment. I often wonder how many people like myself, are afraid of the unknown. How many moments do we really allow ourselves to just “let it be?”  Instead of trying to constantly understand the entire world, what if we all just enjoyed the sense of mystery? Sometimes we just need to leave room for mystery, because really, not everything needs to make sense.

Why do you write?

“I write about the power of trying, because I want to be okay with failing. I write about generosity because I battle selfishness. I write about joy because I know sorrow. I write about faith because I almost lost mine, and I know what it is to be broken and in need of redemption. I write about gratitude because I am thankful – for all of it.” – Kristin Armstrong

 

I began to ponder before I found this quote, why do I write? At first the answer was simple, it is a place where I can freely write anything, without being judged. But then I let the question sit with me, deep in my thoughts, and paused again, and did not find the same answer. I write not only because I can write anything freely, but because I am called to do so. I write in good times and in bad, I write on sunny summer days, and on cloudy winter days. I write because it helps me understand things which don’t make sense, and require rereading to understand. I write to remember all the moments so vividly, and precisely as if I were re-experiencing them again. I write so I can recall my growth and remember my struggles, for it is those moments who made me who I am today. But most importantly, I write in hopes that my story will somehow, someway, help someone feel at ease. Why do you write?

Your writing voice is the deepest possible reflection of who you are. The job of your voice is not to seduce or flatter or make well-shaped sentences. In your voice, your readers should be able to hear the contents of your mind, your heart,your soul.”
-Meg Rosoff

Capture the Moment

“I fear the day that technology will surpass our human interaction. The world will have a generation of idiots.” – Albert Einstein 

I think about all the moments in life I would have loved to capture, not in photos, but on video. Not only would I like to have captured them, I wish I would have been more engulfed in them. I wish I would have set aside my phone, set aside the days calendar, and just really felt those moments. We only get so much time, and we should chose wisely what we allow ourselves to do with it. Its clear to me that I need to start setting time to put my phone away, and really be and live. For some reason, my phone has become an accessory to my outfit, never leaving my right palm. I am constantly connected, and never detached. I want to build this film reel in my head, vividly imaging all the moments I’ve experienced in life, and looking into my right palm is something I wish not to include. I find I am only absorbing half of the moments because i’m preoccupied with my notifications, and flashing screen. I need to learn to power down, interact and fully engage. So much we are missing out on, by only catching half the moment. So find time today to just fully enjoy moments happening right in front of you. You won’t get this same moment again, and you will wish you would have captured it. 

But we have NOW. . .

Our lives are made up of moments. Moments which we love to recall, and others which we wish never existed. But when we look at these moments as a whole, they make up our existence, they define us,  the good, the bad, and even the ugly. The scars we each hold, the band aids that patched them up, and the happy memories which drive us to find more moments like those. Without our scars, we would not know how far we’ve come, and we would not know the necessary lessons we were taught by them. They do end up shaping us into the beautiful beings we are today. With each moment, with each heart beat, embrace all the memories so we can continue to blossom into beautiful butterfly’s. But the best moments of all, our happening right now, before your beautiful eyes. So slow down a little, enjoy the moments that have guided us this far, and thrive on the new moments presented before us.

Traveling Through Time…

”We’re all traveling through time together, every day of our lives. All we can do is do our best to relish this remarkable ride.  And in the end I think I’ve learned the final lesson from my travels in time; and I’ve even gone one step further than my father did: The truth is I now don’t travel back at all, not even for the day, I just try to live every day as if I’ve deliberately come back to this one day, to enjoy it, as if it was the full final day of my extraordinary, ordinary life.” – About Time

 

Time is a funny thing, and it’s something we tend to waste so carelessly. We don’t grasp every moments breath, we don’t admire things that our before our eyes, but instead we dwell in the mind, and get lost in the thoughts. We cling to our past moments, our wrong choices, and our “would have, could have, should have” moments. We are so overwhelmed with what lies behind us, instead of what is held right in front of us. We could be staring at the most beautiful piece of nature, a sunset, a full moon, a blooming flower, yet all we can think about is our daily plan, and how it’s going to completely consume us. I have tried to be more present, in the moment, practicing clearing my mind, and thinking of this idea of time. If I look behind, I only see how far I’ve come, and when I look ahead, I see the many opportunities that can be grasped. And even if I can’t seem to find my place, and two doors are slamming in my face, I know that somewhere, new doors will follow. So for now, I will free myself, and love every moment I am given to try again. I hope that tomorrow, you will wake up with me, and really engulf yourself in the present moments, ignoring just for a moment, all that the past holds, and even all that the future will hold, and just be present. 

Moments of life..

“Don’t let the moment define you. You define the moment. Define it with your mental strength, faith, and confidence. Focus on the now .You are more than your successes. You are more than your failures. You are who you are in the moment. Enjoy it. Live it.Make every moment of your life count. Make the most of it. Make it yours.”

 

Happy Friday everyone! I think back to times in my life that I was suppressed by situations. I called myself damaged, and allowed the situations in my life to define me in a negative way. It was a weight that I was carrying along with me for so long, and it wasn’t until not only the situation changed, but I accepted that idea, “it is what it is.” This is challenging for a lot of people, because we think and over think situations, and find it hard to just let go. We focus so much on the past, and the future, that we forget to focus on now. We focus on our failures, and our accomplishments, as if they really define us. They don’t in reality. What define’s us in my eyes are those connections we make with each passing person we encounter. The things we learn from each embrace, and the depth we find ourselves discovering with each new connection. It’s a blessing to open yourself up, and allow someone to see what really defines you. This is making your life, your own. Learning more and more about yourself, and what you really are capable of, if you allow it. Focus on the now, and let loose this weekend. Dance in the rain, and find yourself! A blessing is sure to be in store for you!