Fairest of them all. . .

“She dreamed improbable dreams. Followed her heart & created her own little fairytale”

I always wondered what it would feel like to live a real life fairytale. But then I began to wonder what fairytales were portrayed to us as. Each and every fairytale had a perfect princess, who fell in love with a prince and that was her happy ending. But that is not my fairytale, and not my happy ending, and I don’t think that’s yours either. Yes we all crave love, and to be in love, but to call that our happy ending would be spurious because in reality, it’s just the beginning; a new chapter. A happy ending is our entire beautiful journey. It is not only the happy infinite moments, but also the bumps, bruises, and scars along the way. It is those moment that we mend ourselves back together, and we look back months, years later and say, “wow, I overcame that.” A fairytale includes all the small moments of life, a simple glance from a stranger, a precious childhood memory to a warm embrace from a loved one. It also includes big moments like falling in love, heartbreak, and the strength to start over. But most of all, your fairytale begins and ends with you. Falling in love with you is the best fairytale you could ever write. You have the pen in your hand and you have the power and choice to say “I can and I will.” There’s no place I’d rather be than right here in my real, imperfect, beautifully flawed fairytale, beginning and ending with a journey of discovering and finding me.

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Aware of our surroundings.

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Happy Monday!! I have been sick with Lyme Disease for those of you who know, but what most of you do not know, is this winter I was given a one dose IV in the ER, and the reaction I had from that one dose has been unimaginable. It has tested my patience, through this long recovery. I am still very patient, and extremely grateful for everything around me. The posts from my WordPress friends and small exchanges make every moment just a little easier. But not everyone in life is as understanding. This bump in the road has also made me aware of my surroundings. Everyone is happy to be around, and call you when you are grand and wonderful, but when you are unable to go out, or are of no use to them, you see a different side. It’s painful to see the reality of this, but I am also grateful to learn the real friends, from the not so supportive ones. My sun is rising again, and I will be using this anchor to help me forward. It’s about spending more time with those who make us better, and look at the best in us, even when we are at our worst. Unfortunately, it takes moments like this to see clearly. But I am SO grateful and fortunate for those who have been a crutch in this rainy storm. So Thank you! Here I Am! Finding my sunshine! 

Focus…

 

ImageI came across this quote today and thought about the importance of the word focus. Life situations can break and bend us out of shape very easily, especially when we set goals for ourselves, and they are unattained. Whether it be a workout goal, a health goal, or just a general life goal, the minute we find turmoil, we tend to hide under the covers and want to run away. Focusing through the pain seems like a very difficult task for most of us. But if someway we focus on the good things that are holding us together, we will realize our strength. Strength will push us through that hard sweaty workout, where you feel like you could throw up, or through that difficult illness, where you feel it’s never going to end. If you just focus on your finish line, and try to put the negative thoughts aside, we will find ourselves more centered. I found myself today focusing on the things that were tearing me apart as I was driving to work, and then something clicked in my head, and just started saying “this is going to turn around for me, today is going to be a GREAT day!” I changed my focus, and navigated here, to the place that holds me together. Thank you for being apart of my journey, and focus on great things today!

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mountain top…

“The difference lies not in the uncertain future but in you and the authenticity of your vision. You are the source. With you and in you, the spark is ignited. This isn’t knowledge that you learn. It’s knowledge that you become.”

After finding this quote, I finally return home to my blog. I’ve spent the last two weeks beating myself up, living in self-pity of all the things I’m not. I allowed doors in my mind to be opened, when I should have said no thank you, I am strong and heathy! My vision was corrupted by the weakened state of health, but I am here to declare I no longer will give in. This is the card I have been dealt at this point in my life, but in my vision for the future, I see no sight of these struggles. I see myself mountaintop, conquering each and every battle thrown at me. You must see your future every single day, even if your standards are too high. Shoot for the moon, and see yourself getting there and with faith, hope and strength, you will! We are on this journey together, so grab my hand, and let’s hike up!f054521db1bbd4401832eedfd3663434

Knock Out.

Ever feel like you’ve beaten up so badly, and you are knocked out emotionally? Ever feel like everything is unraveling right before your eyes and there is nothing you can do to stop it? So what do you do? Crying is natural, sadness is expected, and pain is inevitable. But our responsibilities still exist, and there is no way to just hit pause on this remote of life. As much as we just want to throw in the towel, and give up, something ignites inside of us, like a can of Redbull. We spark, we ignite, and we push on. No one asks for these days, weeks or months, they are just apart of this life of uncertainty. Alice, from Alice in Wonderland asked the White Rabbit, “How long is forever?” and the White Rabbit responded, “Sometimes, just one second.” So my question to you is what are you going to do with your forever? According to the White Rabbit, it may only be this second you have. Image

Faith…

As I listen to Joel Osteen this morning, something inside me sparked. He said “You must make a decision that you are going to move on. It wont happen automatically. You will have to rise up and say, ‘I don’t care how hard this is, I don’t care how disappointed I am, I’m not going to let this get the best of me. I’m moving on with my life.” I not only thought of all the struggles I have been dealt in the past few weeks, but I thought about how much attention I’ve given them. Instead of seeing each day, as a baby step in the right direction, I chose to feed my struggles, by constantly saying how bad everything was. By feeding it, I feel I made the problems grow bigger and bigger, instead of having some faith, and just saying “all is well.” Not every day is going to be perfect, and everyone has complaints, but if we focus all our energy into the negativity, it consumes us. We must find strength, and faith to guide us in these hard times, so we will make our way past this storm, into the sunlight. Something bigger and better always comes after these struggles. Dare to be different, go against the grain, just demand, “all is well!” Don’t be moved by the circumstance, but stand tall! Keep pushing yourself to a better you! Image

Balance…

4282bd2fe8adf4cbbee26cf15ff9b637We all search for balance in our lives. Balance in relationships, in friendships, in work, and in family. This idea has always been curious to me, because I feel no matter how hard we strive, balance is an impossibility to accomplish. It is a nice idea, but it’s not reality. Some weeks our personal lives consume every bit of our energy that we forget to balance our social lives, or the piles of work we have. Other weeks, our relationships, or work life require more of our time, and often people think it can be put on the back burner. So how do we balance a plate full? Do we divide our time up, or is it impossible to have it all? For me, it’s all about what is your top priority. First and for most that should be YOU! You cannot entertain or help anyone if you don’t care for you. All the other priorities are individualized. Work, of course is a necessity, but some of my other priorities would out weigh it. Can a balance be achieved? Once you dig deep down, and see what truly is important to you, I think its possible to have some sort of balance. Of course the scale is going to be outweighed from time to time, but if you make it your priority, nothing will get in your way, no excuses necessary. Just make sure you look at for you first. It is your number duty and priority. Wake up and push yourself to your limit!

Time…

Time is a funny thing.. Everyone says they are never going to get this or that done in time, or they want to be 30 and be in a certain place. But with changes and curve balls thrown at us everyday, how do we stay on track? And what if you are not guaranteed tomorrow? What would you do differently? I have suffered with up and down health conditions for over ten years, and was finally diagnosed with Lyme Disease, a year and half ago. I never thought I would have an answer, and I don’t feel I spent ten years wasting away time, but instead every day I woke up with determination to be “normal.” Time for me now, has a different meaning. I not only have learned to appreciate every single moment I am given, but I appreciate more simplistic things, like being able to get out of bed in morning, and having a great workout. More importantly, time has given me the opportunity to really appreciate and show the ones I hold near and dear to me, how much they mean to me. I find simple ways, to show them now, not tomorrow, next week, or in the future. You can sit here and plan and plan your life away, but if you don’t turn your head and look around, it will all disappear. Look down at your watch, and watch the minutes tick away, or get up and go spread your light! I am sure someone out there could use it! Happy Wednesday, workout hard, smile, laugh, and look up! Something better is on it’s way!!!! Be You Always!! Image

Better days. . .

Right now before you bat your eye lashes one more time, you sit here wishing and hoping that when you close your eyes,all of the days struggles and frustrations will disappear. You hope that you will dream of something grand and that it will come true. Close those eyes now. See it coming true, wake up in the morning and live your dreams. Live everything you hope for. Live for you, for your happiness. Your happiness makes up you. Now I close my eyes, forgetting the past day, and staring at a plain black slab that’s waiting to be colored. Paint a rainbow, your choices are endless. And remember, you’ll always come back to this plain black slab every night, so there’s always another possibility. Just wait, and hope for a better day. 

“Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. Look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true.  Think only of the best, work only for the best, and expect only the best. Forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future. Give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others. Live in the faith that the whole world is on your side so long as you are true to the best that is in you!”

Mental Clarity

Some find it hard to let go of what’s on their mind even in the company of friends and on going conversations. You can feel them thinking, and pressuring themselves. I myself am guilty of this, and when I am so involved, I take myself to my place of mental clarity. It is a quaint private park, with a beautiful view of the beach. Something so soothing about it, that time just literally stops. I have always come to this place to write, to relax, and just to breathe. Last year, the gym became my second mental clarity place. I get lost in the struggle to keep up on treadmill, and the music streaming into my ears. Sometimes I can almost just see myself in the gym alone, and be there in that moment. Today, I hope that on the start of a new week, you find time to find a moment of mental clarity. Take another step on to finding a better you!!! Enjoy the moments of today, of now! We only get them once! Post your places of mental clarity! Hope you exercised with me today, even if it was only ten minutes. Always remember, I am here and so proud of you!03634e9746c60efce16a7f779b798968