It has been a really long time since I got personal, or have even posted. My life has been all over the map, but somehow today, it has brought me back here. This quote just hit me hard. One day my body is a certain way, months later it is here. I dropped 35 pounds, not because I wanted too, but because I got so sick,(Stomach issues). I not only felt like I wasn’t myself, my clothes were falling off, nothing fit, and I felt like I needed to try my hardest to get back. So I ate only healthy foods, lots of almond butter, lots of smoothies packed with healthy fats, salads, beans, eggs and lots of protein shakes. I started to gain, so so so slowly. Progress was taking so long, and I was becoming discouraged, but I never gave up. People everyday talk about “how do I lose weight I’m so miserable, need to lose 5 pounds.” Here I was trying to gain back 35, and not by eating McDonalds and meat, but by eating healthy. Everyday I looked in the mirror, was looking for that beautiful body that I once picked at for every little imperfection. I would take all those imperfections back. But I only fought harder, I was determined. I am about 10 pounds shy of my weight, but I have been lifting heavier weights when my body permits it, and my body is coming back better then ever. For those out there who constantly nit pick at the imperfections, instead of doing so, just exercise. Once you get your head in the game, you will see those imperfections disappear. My journey is not over, but I am thankful for the beauty that I can look in the mirror and see. I am also thankful that I know that I worked hard for this! So here’s to us!
We all search for balance in our lives. Balance in relationships, in friendships, in work, and in family. This idea has always been curious to me, because I feel no matter how hard we strive, balance is an impossibility to accomplish. It is a nice idea, but it’s not reality. Some weeks our personal lives consume every bit of our energy that we forget to balance our social lives, or the piles of work we have. Other weeks, our relationships, or work life require more of our time, and often people think it can be put on the back burner. So how do we balance a plate full? Do we divide our time up, or is it impossible to have it all? For me, it’s all about what is your top priority. First and for most that should be YOU! You cannot entertain or help anyone if you don’t care for you. All the other priorities are individualized. Work, of course is a necessity, but some of my other priorities would out weigh it. Can a balance be achieved? Once you dig deep down, and see what truly is important to you, I think its possible to have some sort of balance. Of course the scale is going to be outweighed from time to time, but if you make it your priority, nothing will get in your way, no excuses necessary. Just make sure you look at for you first. It is your number duty and priority. Wake up and push yourself to your limit!
Time is a funny thing.. Everyone says they are never going to get this or that done in time, or they want to be 30 and be in a certain place. But with changes and curve balls thrown at us everyday, how do we stay on track? And what if you are not guaranteed tomorrow? What would you do differently? I have suffered with up and down health conditions for over ten years, and was finally diagnosed with Lyme Disease, a year and half ago. I never thought I would have an answer, and I don’t feel I spent ten years wasting away time, but instead every day I woke up with determination to be “normal.” Time for me now, has a different meaning. I not only have learned to appreciate every single moment I am given, but I appreciate more simplistic things, like being able to get out of bed in morning, and having a great workout. More importantly, time has given me the opportunity to really appreciate and show the ones I hold near and dear to me, how much they mean to me. I find simple ways, to show them now, not tomorrow, next week, or in the future. You can sit here and plan and plan your life away, but if you don’t turn your head and look around, it will all disappear. Look down at your watch, and watch the minutes tick away, or get up and go spread your light! I am sure someone out there could use it! Happy Wednesday, workout hard, smile, laugh, and look up! Something better is on it’s way!!!! Be You Always!!
Right now before you bat your eye lashes one more time, you sit here wishing and hoping that when you close your eyes,all of the days struggles and frustrations will disappear. You hope that you will dream of something grand and that it will come true. Close those eyes now. See it coming true, wake up in the morning and live your dreams. Live everything you hope for. Live for you, for your happiness. Your happiness makes up you. Now I close my eyes, forgetting the past day, and staring at a plain black slab that’s waiting to be colored. Paint a rainbow, your choices are endless. And remember, you’ll always come back to this plain black slab every night, so there’s always another possibility. Just wait, and hope for a better day.
“Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. Look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true. Think only of the best, work only for the best, and expect only the best. Forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future. Give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others. Live in the faith that the whole world is on your side so long as you are true to the best that is in you!”
Some find it hard to let go of what’s on their mind even in the company of friends and on going conversations. You can feel them thinking, and pressuring themselves. I myself am guilty of this, and when I am so involved, I take myself to my place of mental clarity. It is a quaint private park, with a beautiful view of the beach. Something so soothing about it, that time just literally stops. I have always come to this place to write, to relax, and just to breathe. Last year, the gym became my second mental clarity place. I get lost in the struggle to keep up on treadmill, and the music streaming into my ears. Sometimes I can almost just see myself in the gym alone, and be there in that moment. Today, I hope that on the start of a new week, you find time to find a moment of mental clarity. Take another step on to finding a better you!!! Enjoy the moments of today, of now! We only get them once! Post your places of mental clarity! Hope you exercised with me today, even if it was only ten minutes. Always remember, I am here and so proud of you!
We all have this idea that we have to have this great plan on how to use the gifts we were given. But if we spend day after day trying to figure them out, we end up wasting our precious days. If we sit in a job that’s barely pushing us to our most potential, why do we stay? We all fall into comfort zones, and with our current economy, our choices to change are limited. If we are unhappy with one division of our life, we should try our best to use our gifts in our relationships with others, or most importantly our relationships with ourselves. First and foremost we cannot help others if we can’t be happy with ourselves. Do you tell yourself you love yourself daily? Not in a conceited way, but in a genuine loving way. Our body is our temple, our treasure, the more appreciation we show it, the more good we are doing for it. Our gifts will appear stronger, and our will for change will become easier. Just love yourself, and you are that much closer to a better, stronger you.
Puddles, sleet, rain, and more snow, made this morning a rather difficult one to make my way to the gym. This weather, I allowed to make me anxious, and it was my first mistake. I became easily frustrated and then moody, because I couldn’t go anywhere. Instead of looking at this day as a day to utilize and get things done around the house, I took a complete wrong turn. I did end up working out to a yoga dvd, but at that point I already did a number on myself. I have looked near and far for this answer, in the skies above and the earth below, but to find that the answer was always within. One step in a different direction this morning, and I could have found myself happy and pleased with just great thoughts all in-powered by me. But I, chose this day, I put these thoughts in my head, I made that mistake. Instead of looking at the beauty of nature, the white new coat of snow, and frosted trees, I looked at nature, and let it become my obstacle. How often we do this as society? How often we let the beauty of life, challenge us? How often do we blow situations out of proportion, putting more stress on ourselves then necessary? I continued to think how wasted this day was, but then it was like lighting striking. I could sit here and say it’s over, i’m moody and anxious, or I could seize the rest of the day, and make it worth while! So as I leave you to make a snowman, and do something extremely silly, I hope that you don’t make the same mistake as me. If your bus is late because of weather conditions, or you have more work then normal, take a look around and find something to be thankful for! Your body would sure appreciate more then the stress! Continue to find a better you!
As I place my tip to myself in my workout jar beside my bed, I begin to look at the pictures surrounding my room. I look at the faces that now seem empty to me, and the one’s who shine light in my life daily. I’m reminded who stood by me in this journey of mine, between the good and the bad, between the unexplained times of my disease, to the great days and motivations. I reflect on the days I force myself out of bed, and to the gym because I know it is the only thing that will help at the moment. As I look at all these faces, I am thankful for the times they stayed, but also for the times they gave me my space, to just be comfortable in my own skin. It is these people who motivate me to find the complete equation to fix me. It is the new people, such as yourself, who motivate me to find an equation fit for everyone with this disease. The first equation is surrounding yourself with positive people. Sometime’s those faces who seem empty in your pictures need to be crowded out, to make room for the new lights that will shine in your life. You can’t chase people to stay with you. You just have to be you, and the people who belong will find a way and stay. Just be you! I continue my days, workouts in the morning, home cooked meals, work at night, and plenty of sleep. Those who understand me, know this is what I need, and accept me for me. You do not need people who question where life is leading you. They are the ones that need to be left in the trails. Just take the road that’s meant for you, and those who belong with you walk along side with you, for when you need that extra boost. Thank you for walking beside me on this journey, and I am here ready to shine my light, if you need me. And always remember…
Happy Monday everyone! Today, February 3rd, I decided to wake up early and start this new week off on the right foot! As I anticipated seeing a packed gym, having to wait for a treadmill, to my surprise, it was a GHOST TOWN! Could it be the snow or could it be everyone gave up on their new years resolutions already?? This concept of new years resolutions has always boggled my mind. Who’s to decide what day marks my new year? Why can’t it be my birthday that brings me new beginnings? Or September, the start of fall and new school beginnings? Or even a new career in the spring? I think as a society every one generates these larger than life resolutions , I can say I am guilty of it! We hold so much weight and pressure on ourselves in January because we have to be like everyone else and meet our ridiculous expectations. Instead, I’ve decided that everyday for me is a new a start, a new chance to change the things I am unhappy with. Every single day we are given a new clean canvas awaiting a new masterpiece. What are you going to paint today? Are you going to draw outside the lines, or chose a new color? For me, I stepped off the treadmill, walked down the stairs of my gym, and entered the weight room. This place normally scares me, because I worry about pushing my body to far. Today, my body was brought to a whole new level, one which I’ve never challenged. And I am proud to say, I feel AMAZING! Today I hope you forget all those larger than life resolutions and just enjoy your fresh start of today!!!! If you participated in staying active, please share your achievements with us! And congrats on another day forward to a better you!
“The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, nor the kindly smile, nor the joy of companionship; it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when you discover that someone else believes in you and is willing to trust you with a friendship.” -Gucci Mane
Having Lyme Disease can be crippling at times, where your joints ache so bad that you can’t make a firm tight fist. It was certainly one of those mornings for me, but since I am here for you, and you for me, I got up tied my running shoes, and walked out my door. I am not going to say it was my best workout ever, but I made it. I thought about all the people that could be reading my blog, and I just couldn’t disappoint! I also created a jar in my room. For every workout, I would award myself a $1. At the end of the month, I would have $20 to give back to myself for all the sweat and hard work! I think about the things that motivate me to push myself even harder, and for me I would have to say that it’s music. A good song with great lyrics, can make me feel like I’m infinite at times. When I need that extra push on the elliptical to get to the cool down stage, I often find myself putting on the song “Stay The Night” by Zedd. I hope that this Friday brings you great joy, and adventure! Push yourself this weekend to get out and enjoy! If you have a song that helps you stay motivated, please share! And remember, you can do ANYTHING you put your mind to! I’ll see you Monday, for our 30 minute workout together! Be well! =)