Being Open. . .

Throughout life, I have wanted this, wanted that, and always had such a tight grip because I wanted my life to be arranged just so. I had many desires and expectations regarding my life and my plan for it. But what I’ve come to realize that the journey is not arranging my life just so, but to continually seeking and being open to find the journey of your soul. Consciously we could become discomforted by the idea of throwing caution to the wind and being open, but if we can see beyond the surface, we can begin to experience with the heart of our souls. We will feel completely empowered by the depth we find. It is here we will learn about power, love, faith, hope, letting go, embracing new, and courage. Opening up is not something that we do a few times in life, but rather, it has to be our way of life. Life is always going to throw us curve balls and make us want to close off, and put up a wall. When we make a commitment to ourselves to be open, no matter what life “does to us,” we are choosing how we want to live. It may be risky to love, to feel, to believe and be open, because at one point in your life you were burned or betrayed. But that insecurity only comes from not trusting and cherishing your own heart. Open your heart and believe. Learn to see life with the heart of your soul and experience your truths and let your soul lead on this beautiful journey of life.

Passion. . .

“Passion is passion. It’s the excitement between the tedious spaces, and it doesn’t matter where it’s directed…It can be coins or sports or politics or horses or music or faith…the saddest people I’ve ever met in life are the ones who don’t care deeply about anything at all.”
― Nicholas Sparks, Dear John

When you are out, or just having a conversation with someone, if you pay full attention to them, you can see what moves their soul. When they are describing a book, and their face is so enthusiastic about it, or they are flaying their arms in excitement. It truly is an extraordinary remarkable moment. People rarely talk about their passions, because they are so involved in topic of conversations about their terrible boss, or day at work. But on that rare occasion that someone sparks your attention by their beaming energy, and you can just see how deeply they are rooted to it. It’s magical, much like a still night with a full moon. The moon was always something that intrigued me. Not just for the simple fact that it can light up an entire sky in darkness, but how perfect it can look even when it’s not full. It’s beauty is in all shapes and sizes. The moon, if you haven’t noticed yet, is a passion of mine. To lay in the grass and stare blankly into the stars, and moon, is just an endless feeling. But the best feelings in life are the one’s where we can exchange our moments that bring us to these amazing places. Not only because everyone has a different passion, but because it shows we have depth in our souls. We can continue to have the same conversations upon ever meeting, or why don’t you dare to ignore life’s worries, and indulge in conversations that move your soul. So tonight meet me under the moon, close one eye, and put your thumb up, i’ll be there waiting….

” No matter where it is in the sky..No matter where you are in the world..the moon is never bigger than your thumb.” -Dear John

 

Focus…

 

I came across this quote today and thought about the importance of the word focus. Life situations can break and bend us out of shape very easily, especially when we set goals for ourselves, and they are unattained. Whether it be a workout goal, a health goal, or just a general life goal, the minute we find turmoil, we tend to hide under the covers and want to run away. Focusing through the pain seems like a very difficult task for most of us. But if someway we focus on the good things that are holding us together, we will realize our strength. Strength will push us through that hard sweaty workout, where you feel like you could throw up, or through that difficult illness, where you feel it’s never going to end. If you just focus on your finish line, and try to put the negative thoughts aside, we will find ourselves more centered. I found myself today focusing on the things that were tearing me apart as I was driving to work, and then something clicked in my head, and just started saying “this is going to turn around for me, today is going to be a GREAT day!” I changed my focus, and navigated here, to the place that holds me together. Thank you for being apart of my journey, and focus on great things today!

 

Day Nine!

Happy Valentine’s Day! I have been MIA for two days due to weather conditions, as well as health conditions. My exercise regimen has been running from doctor to doctor! But I hope that you have stayed strong, and worked out for both of us! On this day, I think if it’s the only day you do so, treat yourself to something. Spend this day, loving yourself, because no one will love you, quite like you could love yourself. Sometimes it takes being so down in the dumps, to realize just how strong you are. When you are on the floor and can’t get up, you look around and all you find is yourself. You are frustrated and sad, but somehow those pains turn into strength and you begin picking yourself up. You begin to see qualities in yourself you hadn’t seen before, and you find yourself sort of beautiful and strong, even in a weak moment. It is moments like these we have to bring with us in times of adversity. We have to remember we have been at the bottom before, and the only way to go is up! So today, remember all your strong moments, and love yourself for them. Spend this Valentine’s Day appreciating the only person in the world that needs it most, and that’s you!

Sending my xoxo’s to you! 

Day Nine

Forgiveness to each person in this world is seen and experienced differently. For some it can be an anchor, which grounds you to this earth. To others, a double edged sword, piercing upon entry and exit. But for me, it varies per situation. I wonder often, when I sincerely seeked forgiveness, why was I easily granted it. Although, the damage I did, did not even warrant a response, I was granted one and more. An apology I worked on for at least two years came out as basic and questionable as a generated message on a Hallmark card. A double edge sword, because he forgave me, and even reminded me of my worth, but at the same time said he could not bare to keep a connection. The connection was an impossibility because of all the hurt he had felt. I understood his feelings, and when he said not a day went by since then, that he hadn’t thought about me every single waking moment, him forgiving me made me feel so much worse. And just as that connection was in me, it all faded away with that ending email. To forgive and be forgiven are the experiences which separates the anchor from the double edge sword. When you are forgiven, you are still left with the damage you have inflicted on another being. When you forgive, you feel a period of pain, but let it sink away after time, and you can surely feel grounded again. You are not left with this terrible feeling of regret or uncertainty. The symbol for human beings should be a double infinity, for throughout life we are either seeking to be forgiven or offering forgiveness to others. I find that as we steer through this life, if we are constantly grounded to the idea of the double infinity, forgiving and being forgiven, we could live a more fulfilling life. But first we must learn to practice and accept both. So on your journey today, and this week, think of this concept as you pursue finding a better you. I hope that your journey today brought you a simple walk outdoors, or even a simple moment to be alone with thoughts. You owe it to yourself!